Today is almost 7 1/2 months since we started this process and the "9th week anniversary" of when our completed Dossier was sent to Colombia; since then, we have had to do a bit more "paper-chasing" which was all sent in 2 weeks ago, but we still haven't heard anything. This may not seem like much for those who are waiting for a referral, but keep in mind that our process wasn't for an unidentified infant, but for an "older sibling group" of children who were already identified and have been waiting for their forever family for at least 2 years. We had been told that the process was going to be much faster, so this added "wait" and not knowing is a wee bit stressful! We also noticed that the girls information was removed from the agencies private waiting list, and the only other children that were removed were the ones who have either already been adopted or are no longer being represented for adoption by the agency. So, needless to say right now we have about a gazillion questions that are not being answered and of course, as some of you already know, saying that our emotions are a bit raw right now is a bit of an understatement :>)Those of you who are following our journey and know from experience what it is to long for a child for quite some time and then still not know if the ones you have chosen will be yours in the end, can certainly relate!
In the meantime, we were reminded this week YES, ONCE AGAIN that we are not the ones in control here, but the Lord is STILL THE ONE and we must continue to trust ONLY in Him, that the children that are meant to be part of our family will somehow find their way to us. We continue to be reminded of this fact when we see the examples of so many wonderful new families we have met through this process and also a dear couple, friends of ours for many years, who are currently in Brazil adopting a gorgeous baby girl, who God brought into their lives when they least expected. This is indeed so true: "The children God has for us, will miraculously find their way to us, no mater what!!!"
God is so good and His mercies are indeed new every morning, He gives us the strength to continue on this journey and He gives us the faith to continue to believe and persevere. We know that the child/children He has for us is just waiting for us to go and get them, no matter where that will ultimately be, whether it's Colombia or somewhere else, it's only a matter of time!
Finally, we want to share with you something that came to my heart while having devotions this week, it is a letter I wrote as I felt God's love demonstrated in the way He so faithfully continues to supply our hearts with peace and faith to keep on believing!
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FROM: God
ADDRESS: Heaven & in your heart
PHONE #: P-r-a-y-e-r (Call anytime, there's never a busy signal or voice-mail, I always answer)!
DATE: Eternity
RE: My gift to you!
Dear Sharon & Michael,
I am writing this letter to inform you that I have decided in my perfect plan for your lives, that when the right time comes I will fully entrust the two of you with the gift of a beautiful child/children named:___________________________
Please know, that this child or children will not be given to you as your possessions, they are mine and always will be, but out of trust for the deepest desire of your hearts to become parents and the enormous amount of pure and sincere love which I can see overflowing from your hearts, I will bestow upon you the great responsibility to "cherish, nurture, guide and honor" these precious little ones, so that they can grow up with the opportunities to become all that I have created them to be and fulfill their purpose and full potential as human beings!
I understand that many times, you have questioned the reasons why you had to suffer from infertility and the many emotional lessons learned through that experience in the many years you've been together. There were so many times when your hearts ached for answers and you felt that I was not listening, but oh my dear ones, the truth is that I have never left you nor forsaken you, I have always been there all along, silently preparing for you in the depths of my love!
Just think, if it had not been for the difficult road you had to travel, you would have never gone on this long journey that will ultimately, lead you to the awesome final destination: "Your Beautiful Child/ren" - The one/s who were truly meant to be part of your family. The one/s that in my omniscience I knew by name and had a plan for, even before the foundation of the world, the one/s whose substance I knew even before they were yet formed in the womb that carried and birthed them, the one/s who were fearfully and beautifully made by my own hands and through these hands, yes, my very own hands, they will be placed in your arms and forever in your hearts, so that you may become their Real Mom and Dad!!! (Read Psalms 139).
I am the giver of all good things and am always near. Just wait and you will see, that soon, very soon, your lives will change overnight as you adjust, bond and learn to become parents, things may (better yet, will) become busy and hectic at times, but please remember that I am always only "a prayer away" so, feel free to "call me" anytime!
I will always be available to also: "cherish, nurture, guide and honor you," just as you will do with your precious little one/s; that is because Sharon and Michael, you are and will always be my beloved children, also "chosen and adopted" by me to fully partake in my inheritance which is freely given to you through my son Jesus Christ!
Much love yesterday, today and forever!
Your heavenly Father,
God
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